Papa Tom invited me to join him in church today, but I don't have a great deal of time or faith in god since he took Si away from me, or even before that actually . I am consumed with such an intense burning rage at the unfairness of it all, and I couldn't go to church and pretend I'm ok with it all because what I really want to do is punch something. The potential for losing my shit is far too high, and Papa Tom is a nice old man. The healing and blessing he gave me was incr