15/2/2026 Post Valentines blues

I ordered room service breakfast this morning, the face was red blotchy and the eyes were really puffy, frankly they were like piss holes in the snow . The only downside to room service breakfast was there were no coffee top ups. I could have really done with it  because I exhausted my supplies in the room yesterday. The plus size of ordering room service was the portion size. Bloody hell I had enough food to keep me going all day and was theee times the amount I’d have served myself. I put half of it in the fridge to have later. Gotta love a fridge in the room!

Housekeeping came, and I declined the room making up and just requested more coffee and milk. She gave me enough to sink a battle ship so I was fine for  the day. It was another gorgeous sunny day, which I spent on the deck lost in thoughts of Si, feeling sorry for myself with a cold flannel over my eyes in an attempt to get them to go down. It was vaguely successful so I broke out the big guns, the arnica cream from the fridge which definitely helped with the situation.. Also useful was the rescue remedy and my somatic cards stupid panic and anxiety  attacks. 

I finished off my breakfast for supper, I was still too full at lunch time because the omelet they supplied was massive, and there was about half a loaf of bread with a shit load of butter, vegemite honey and jam. And two of every pastry and cake they had on offer.  Proper stodgy comfort food. The fruit plate was huge too, far bigger than I would have served for myself as I said. I guess they realised I was a donkey on the edge and by throwing food at me it might keep me calm and they didn’t have to get too close and risk getting an arm chewed off . A wise move guys wise move. 

The day was marginally better than yesterday, the heaviness is still there but the blackness inside me has eased to a dark grey so I guess that's a step in the right direction. Tomorrow I’m hoping for a little more sunshine inside rather than the  overwelming dark clouds.. 

Much  Love

Mrs Leonard